Winter Cleaning..

Hola All..

Well today was a major winter cleaning day.. My DH who decided to tackle the closet and for that I am glad that he did, but one tiny problem the rest of the room looks like crap, and now my living room is crappy.. I guess to clean one or all of it has to be crap b4 it looks nice.. I hate that part! AHHH! Anyway we got rid of at least 12 or 13 bags of cloths, and shoes.. Amazing though how much we accumalated or didnt throw out a few years ago.. I got rid of cloths that are way out of style and just didnt need any more.. A few pieces were 7yrs old.. Thats bad.. So that part is good, so I am relieved.. Tomorrow DH will take it all over to good will and drop it and then come get me and DS and go pick up his check and then cash it then go and get the freezer grocery shopping done.. For that I am glad to see get done, I've begged DH to let me go to Oakhurst (My home town) and get food on the g/c we had.. He refused and claimed he "forgot" about a $100 check he had.. Uhuh.. Sure hun..

So tonight I'm about to climb the walls due to the place looking messy and its like I work my ass off to make it look nice in the common areas and he has to go and make a bigger mess in the other areas that arent common.. UGH I even napped today and was tired and my allergies are bad to.. Depsite the rain storm we had today and last night it is like ugh.. So I am so ready to retire and read a book.. I finished a book called The Bone Garden, boy what a great book to read.. I cant think of the author, if you want to know, those of you who have MySpace check it out there, its on one of my postings..

Anyway, just got DS ready for bed, and by 11pm I'll turn his light off and he'll sleep, he took a nap today thats why he's still up.. Plus we just ate dinner, late I know. We worked on the room for 2 hrs and it still needs work.. So we'll get there.. So hope y'all had a great week and weekend.. Ready for a new week.. I think this is the last week of this month? So this month has been slow! AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Plus all my DH talks about is money and taxes shit which is another things that drives me insane and ready to bust him one.. I swear if I dont own wood, I'd take a 4x4 and go WHAP! To knock some sense into him.. We havent been to church all this month and he promised me that we'd go ,have we? NO.. AHH! As you can see things are good/bad but hey what can a girl do? He did take care of DS all day so that was nice.. Did clean and is cleaning so I shouldnt complaine but I am about to go out of my mind! Lord help!

Love & Light
Laura

Rain, Rain Rain and Loving It!

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Hope y'all are well.. Well this week has been interesting.. To say the least things are calmer now than they were earlier in the week on Mon/Tues.. My DH got his license renewed with out a problem and I am glad and I cant wait to get his check on Monday and go grocery shopping, course I hope I can go this week, maybe tomorrow if he'll let me have the car:)

I talked to a couple good solid girl/friends this week and both are great and easy to confide in about problems and needed advice, both are gifted in different areas and thats a solid blessing to thank you sisters, you know whom you are.. ;)

So just playing catch up this week, course I finally let DH or convince him is more the word to let me do some laundry and take $20 and do the 5.5 loads I had .. When he walked out with me to see how much I had gotten started he was floored, I was doing 4 loads and still had 1.5 to finish.. He was like wow, so $10 wouldnt have been enough and I'm all well not really not counting the weekend and such to. So we'll see.. Its been raining as you can see my tital of this weeks blog, course California is getting blasted by this storm and now in places and Fwy's being shut down and small towns such as Oakhurst and North Fork shutting down and schools cancelled and just ton of stuff gonig on.. So we're supposed to see a break and then a few more showers but next week according to a channel we have here is KSEE 24 news and it said we're due for sun/clouds next week no rain.. So we'll see!

Its been nice being home and not have to go out in this rain, even though my fav thing to do is drive in it.. I prefere to curl up with a blanket and a good book and a soda pop.. But having a tot and watching him to be sure he's safe well curling up to a book isnt gonna work till bed time for DS..hehe

Well thats about it here, just waiting to get the weekend here.. Mostly due to DH going to work tomorrow early from 1pm-9pm and Sat morning from 6am-2pm so, not much time but after work Sat, I have him from Sat evening till Tuesday he goes back to work normal hours.. Yeah! I cant wait.. I'm still waiting on my ATM card and checks from WM (washington mutual) bank and its taking a while for me to get them.. They said a week and its lil over that now.. HMM wonder whats taking so long! Anyway hope to have that soon as possible so I can put in my DH's checks and such till we deal with some financial matters and again only close freinds know about that much of what we're doing.. Family will not know much about our decisions or can do much about it.. Sucks but its the truth..

Well, I gotta go see what my kid is up to.. So hope y'all have a great week and be blessed..

Love & Light
Laura

DH's birthday....

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Well as you can see, the tital of my post is my Hubby's birthday.. Today was nice, we took a shower, ( he needed one) and so I wanted one.. So we went to browse the Dollar Tree well Dh did, I didn't care one way or the other really.. So we called his grandma and so we went over to her house for dinner and had an ok time.. DS loved it and so we came home around 7ish and DS ate dinner and had a warm bath and now in bed after getting into enormous trouble.. So hope he'll sleep awhile.. Then my wonderful DH cleaned off my desk and helped move it over some and then, I went through the trash that was all over it, then I wrote out thank-you cards and all I gotta do now is address them and send them out on Monday, a list of things we're doing Monday to.. Be a very long day! So we'll be up early that day and get stuff done, so we wont run around all over da place doing stuff..

Tomorrow is when the family comes down and we go out to dinner for DH's birthday, even though it was today, we still have to celebrate with the rest of the family.. I pick up DH's cake tomorrow afternoon , if we attend church then we'll come home, eat and then I"ll do that.. So no big deal.. I am looking forward to picking up the cake..

Lets see thats about it.. Then Monday we'll go eat out with DH's grandma even though we were over there having dinner tonight it was OK but eh, I could eat a chicken quediea which I made DH make.. hehe! Anyay thats been our weekend so far.. Just chilling mostly.. Glad that things are about to slow down.. I have set up online payments for our bills and such so that'll make it a little less footbwork but its still gonna be awhile b4 my checks come in and my new ATM card hope Mon/Tues.. I'll be so glad and relieved!

Well, hope y'all have a great weekend.. Much love

Love & Light
Laura

Adjusting to Life..

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I thought this picture would fit into how I feel and knowing Jesus is there holding me and our family in a way that only he can do.. So take heed that this picture isnt just for me but for those of you as well.:)

I want to learn basic spanish some how.. Anyway life is being adjusted very much so.. The past couple days I've had nothing but headaches and stress.. All in all things are going to calm down and keep focus on the Lord, is all we can do.. I am happy to say that my Dh worked this morning even though he's crashed right now, and was home with us this afternoon.. I went to get us some free movies (free rentals from Blockbuster) we get the movies online and you can return them for free rents.. I am so desprately trying to cut down on the dollar going out and keeping it in as much as possible.. That is taking some work.. But all in all, life is ok.. My g/f and I talked the past few hours and O I miss our coffeee nights so bad.. She and I talked about money matters and she knew that we were struggling, and so desparately needing some answers.. She and I discussed getting my wee-one ready for pre-school in the fall so this week, I will be looking into that, and I want to look into some free stuff I can with my son while trying to get pregnant with baby 2.. I know some might say well, with all the finanical stuff why try and raise another child ? Well to be honest its my way of trusting in God to pull through and to keep helping us stay afloat.. I know most dont understand that and thats ok.. No one needs to understand..

So tonight has been basically snacking and enjoying each others company.. My son went to bed pretty good tonight due to no nap today, he was to wired up to sleep.. So hope tomorrow we'll get him on a schedule again.. I am trying some thing new with his bed time routine and so far it seems to be working..

There's alot to think about and take care of around here, but all in all, I want things to be clutter free not just my home but in my mind to.. To much thinking can do some damage if you let it, by giving you headaches and stress instead of falling on our face and ask God to take it all from us and to handle it.. Which is where we are at this point in our life.. We'll be celebrating 7yrs in April together and I hope and pray we can keep it together so we wont go down a dark path in life like I havent been on a dark path since I was born.. Life should be sun-shine and love and grace from above..

For one I am grateful to have my son.. Many times I was told I couldnt have children.. Well, God prooved that to me he can do all things if we keep the faith and do our best to walk in his grace.. I have seen his grace over and over again in life, esp since I got saved.. So I just need to find that place in my life to keep being devoted to him and him alone..

I am greatful for those whom I have friends and you know who you are.. You mean alot to me and I thank God each day for that.. Y'all are blessing from above and grace and mercy each day I get to talk to you or see you.. That keeps my world going to know that God uses friends to keep us ticking and focused on what the task we need at hand each day.. To lift us up when we need it and rebuke us when we need it.. So thank you ...

Well, its 1:00 am and I am tired, I need to see if I can get Dh in the shower and bed time.. We're both tired mentally and just needed much rest.. Tomorrow is another day and I am glad for it due to Gods mercy is new each morning..

Love & Light
Laura

Deep Conversation....

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Well, tonight DH and I discussed a very deep conversation.. Nothing bad but it can turn to bad if we allow that to happen.. Dh and I discussed financial matters, how much we'd need to find a way out of this big burden of problems.. He's discussed banrupcy and I was against it at first with out truly realizing that he might be right.. So we're gonna look into it.. We discussed the fact that if we continue on this path of financial problems we will not be together in 3 yrs.. We both know it in the back of our minds but again its very hard to say for sure,unless we dont start changing things now.. So I ask that y'all keep us in prayer over this decision and thats its the right one in the near future.. We only make so much and I think its the hardest part to make this choice, and even though if we dont make a choice soon we'd definatly are gonna see more problem..

Right now we're watching Ghost Hunters Season 3 and its my favorite so far. So right now just enjoying the night, it looks like it rained today so the air smells good and fresh.. So thats nice.. So I just thought I'd post it's not a very long post due to being very tired and just emotinally drained out.. Otherwise doing ok.. Hope y'all are good..

Love & Light
Laura

Shift Back to Normal.

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Lets see life is starting to shift to normal around here. I am so glad to..Finally the holidays are behind us and we can now move forward to a new year in 2008.. My DH has been so exhausted and not used to the day time hours and my son well into over drive and extreemly cranky.. Yesterday my lil wee one was so tired that we forced him to lay down at least an hour and he did but still woke up cranky and went to bed fighting due to not wanting to but to get up and play.. I finally had to shut the door and take his stuffed dog from him to make him go to bed. DH course sacked out on the couch all night sleeping and I knew he was tired and just needed some due rest.. Grandma stopped by to give me the exchange of Christmas gift that she bought was a coat but the coat was to small. So I got a real nice shirt and a slip on jacket like and it's purple! Yeah!

So today was nice and DH got up around 6am and I heard him get up but didnt realize the time and last night we gotten into it but thats ok he was tired and I had to let it go and let God work on both of us.. So we just relaxed and I played my PS 3 for an hour b4 retiring to bed.. My AF (period) is here so I'm pretty tired and just worn out course I had a cold last week and just got over that on Sunday.. So needless I'm still recouping.. We went grocery shopping and went a little over-board but at least we have food for the month and half to be sure that we're set on that.. We have to figure out how to fix my Chevy S10 truck and find a way to get it runnig at least and fix it slowly.. The only way we know how.. We would love to move to a different apartment but again its hard due to needing the time and space to move and get the bills current and the truck running is the top priority right now..

Lets see what else? DS is well, finally over his ear infections (Double) and he still has a cold and coughing some but other wise he's doing well.. We're due for rain this weekend and tonight and I am so glad to we need all the rain God can send to California.. We're desprate for rain to.. Lets see what else? Not much else.. DH took down our Christmas stuff and we're slowly getting the house "Normal" thats why I say shift to normal again.. Life is getting normal and once again we can start to enjoy the new year with out much of a fuss at least attempt to.. This sunday will be the first time in attending church since last April and we've been needing to go for so long but again its not fault or blame its life.. Things come up and been extreemly difficult but God dont give us more than we handle in life even though it feels like its more than we can bear..

Well, I do pray y'all had a wonderful New Years and that God graced all of you healthy and happy.. We're getting things there and in due time I cant complaine to much! Well let us begin 2008 ! God bless..

Love & Light
Laura