Possitive Thoughts Beginning.

Hola All,

Well the past couple days have been nice, even though its been blah and hot in the low 100's here in the central Cali valley.. I sure cant wait for fall to get here, and my son's bday in October.. Trying to plan that as I go,not sure what I am going to do,but we'll figure it out as we go along, need to discuss it with my MIL (Mom in law) about it since I have to find invitations to his bday and that all who can come will be there for his bday.. Last year was a blast from both sides of the family were present.. I liked that and hope that they will return for son's 2nd birthday party.. It'll be a BBQ and just a relaxing atmosphere for all of us and not so stressful..

Well I know I vented a few days ago about DH, well things are a little better in that department, he's being more possitive and not negitive and thats a BIG help and an answer to prayer and thoughts to God about it all.. Been stressful with him so negitive and just draines me out and I love his new outlook and I pray it keeps up so that way we can keep having a great marriage and not me praying to leave him..

The job search is still on, but hard to do when you have a toddler in tow and need to get job applications.. I still want a job from home, but praying on the right one to.. This week has been long and its finally Thursday (Wee hours of the morning weds night/thurs morning) and its only near 1am. I am tired been on the go today, since 9ish this morning.. We had MIL stop by on their way to the beach and we were cleaning and rushing around getting things picked up and cleaned up so it dont look like crap here at home.. I did dishes and 2 loads of laundry tonight to keep up since my cycle will be here in a couple days and so I want to rest on those days.. DH works Sunday and he worked this past Monday.. Its been nice to have him gone, even though I miss him alot, just need time to myself and its been nice but like I said a long week ahead.. We only have Monday together and we're gonna cancel his dentist appt and move it.. I am also waiting on a phone call from my eye Dr. saying my new frames for my glasses have come in.. I cant wait to get them and I pray I get the call soon.. I hate waiting so long..

I appreciate all the thoughts and prayers going out for us, since its been so long dealing with financial stuff, and knowing that things are tough but we get through by the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ who give us beyond what we need and even think for.. I am greatful for the Word of God being displayed in my Husband who dont realize he's listening to the word and just trying to by the Holy Ghost renew his mind and spirit, thats what we all need and I am so glad to see it slowly start to happen,but my biggest concern is how long will it last? I hope the rest of my life,but if things slip again and go weeks of negitivism then I have no clue what I'll do then, I hope I can hang on and keep praying that I be the understanding wife that I am and get into "Survival Mode" and just bear with it and keep going.. Well I'd best sign off, I took some advil for my back and neck its been stressful but not to bad..I just want to rest and sleep some so I can get back to normal.. Well God bless and keep in touch..

Love & Light
Laura

Discussion with DH

Hello..
Well, yesterday was ok.. We finally got out the door and ran to Target and TJmax store here where you can find cloths and things for major discount so I got my son some bath toys for $12 and each was $5 and got both for the price of one. Then we got a coffee drink.. DH got on me about money again and I am so sick of it, he turns the most innocent conversation around and make me look bad when its all him cockin an attitude over shit which is stupid really.. Makes me pissed off when he acts like "I'm the one doing all the attitude" ugh.. So I called him on it and he stopped and just got out what was bothering him when I know what it is,but better him talkin about it than to keep it locked up even when I do know its money and all that shit.. So is just hard to keep up w/him.. Like I told him the only reason I'm staying with him is cuz all couples have money problems and thats part of why marraiges fail and its true.. So I am offering to work to help bring in some money to get him off the fucking money issues and crap.. Maybe this is a stepping stone for me? Maybe this is the start of some thing that will come? Anyway thats been my day.. Hope y'all are better than I am..

Love & Light
Laura

Overbearing Husband.

Well today was nice, went to the store.. I spent a little but not to bad, and DH was being an ass and over-bearing.. I told him that I was going to get a newspaper on Sun and cut out coupons and go to the store, and hope the store we go to will double the coupons. So he apologized but its still annoying.. O well! Not much I can do about it. Other than that not much watche RENT and Prince of Tides today and relaxed... So I am tired tonight, gonna go to bed soon.. So anywho tomorrow will be consist of maybe playing my game and watchin my movies again.. :) God bless..

Love & Light
Laura

Hello.

Well this is my first time posting on a new blog, this is so cool.. A good friend of mine said I can start doing a diff blog. I have a few that I do.. So this is cool.. I'll post stuff when I can.. Love yas..

Love & Light
Laura