The End of May...

Hello Friends

Well here we are at the end of May.. I am for one glad to see it go.. I know alot of people ask why well, besides Mothers Day, the month doesnt bring much joy but at least my walk in the Lord is more and getting there each day..

Please bear with me, I have a dull headache and had it since this early Am like around 2:00 on and even went to bed with it but took some thing to help but its not all helpful at the moment and took a 2nd dose of OTC (over the counter) meds.. They do bring some relief but alot of times, it takes the edge off for awhile..

Anyway back to to my post.. June is here and we'll be celebrating fathers day and many who have birthdays also which is me! My birthday is the 25th of June and oh so nice, even tho I hate summer hope each summer comes its mild and just wonderful.. Most summers here in the Central Valley are very hot, it goes from Bakersfeild to I believe Medesto or so, and its just HOT.. I hate it but at least we have A/C and are able to keep cool with a pool to.. My son hasnt learned to swim but he loves the water, espically bath time.. I took him swimming 2 weeks ago and he cried for about 5mins and then he got used to the big pool and wanted to swim.. So that was nice.. Even tho during the day it was over 100 outside..

So we're beginning to break into summer routine here and lazyness and that I dont have a car right now, makes things a lil difficult for me but that'll be remedied next year for sure.. So then I can do more activities with my son that stay home couped up from the summer heat and winter rain.. I am a winter person, I'd rather do stuff in the winter time than any thing, summer I get the depression due to the heat and just not much I find fun..

So hope everyone has a great summer and filled with busy bees even when the gas prices are over $4.33 here a gal, unbelieveable.. I sure wish the governmt would fix that and for everyone to have to pay regular price but thats a whole diff post than what I want to get into here.. So I pray everyone is safe and enjoys the summer time with loved ones..

Love & Light
Laura

Interesting Week..

Hello All

Well,this has been a very long week I gotta admit.. Even though alot of the programs and shows are coming to season finale.. Lets see whats on the block for this week.. Well, we singed a new lease for 6 mo to give us some time and perspective on what to do and save some money to move.. Which in turn I doubt.. We had a very hot weekend last weekend, and it was in the 100's this weekend and whew, our A/C was wonky from not producing enough cool air.. So Monday we had that looked at, then fixed.. Today we got our 2 remaining plugs fixed and so now they work,yeah! Happy about that..

So thats been the bulk of my week.. My shoulder/neck pain is finally going down still there some but its slowing and its such a releif to have; been taking so much tyelnol and advil to move and do stuff.. Today tho I had to take allergy meds due to the high winds we got yesterday and today.. Well, I thought I'd post my useal posting of 1x a week,hehe.. Hope y'all are having a great time and staying cool or comfy while this weather is nice this weekend, my DH has 3 days off, so I dunno what we're gonna do with ourselves.. So my bday is coming up in a month and so I am soo excited, even though I'll be eh my 30's .. HELP! LOL

Well I gotta get some stuff done..Stay safe and cool,and hold your children close..

Love & Light

Laura

PS Pray for Steven Curtis Chapman and his family they lost thier youngest daughter yesterday.. If you have myspace, and have him on it, leave a commnet of prayer and support, thanks.

Summer Arrivals..

Hola All.

Well, now that Mothers Day has come and gone, and I gotta say I was blessed to be happy mom and not have to share my day with anyone, yes! Hehe.. For many thats a major accomplishment but gotta say it didnt suck.. DH made me a brunch and it was really good,waffles, bacon,and dunno what else? Then we went to browse stores and had a nice time, got me a choc/chip pretzel oh it was good! Then found a game I wanted, so bought that on Monday and a new wallet.. Sweet!

Then Mothers day night, DH made me a shrimp dinner oh so good! Garlic bread and salad and just plain good stuff! Chomped that down oh so good, then watched the movie Castle on TV then watched our Rented movies that we had and returned 2 movies and then rented 2 more.. So yesterday I returned those and got gas for DH and then just chilling did laundry, dishes, had alot to do since DH didnt do jack shit over the weekend cept cater to me and make good food, but cleaned nothing.. He did how-ever take out 2 bags of trash I was about to take out last night but didnt..

Then he gave me my MD card and it was shitty but it was worded nice but it was a truly aweful card.. Just hate it.. Even though my birthday is in a month, that doesnt make up for Mothers Day at all. Esp being my 1st where I dont have to share it.. He didnt even get our son Josh's card from him for mommy's day.. Oy! So I wasnt to pleased with him but oh well its over and done..

Lets see what else? Weather has been un-bearable , even tho only in the 80's and striking up in the 90's and SO not wanting summer to be here yet.. Wish it was cold and comfty for me to be in sweats and jeans even a tank top is nice to wear but man, I do not like the heated up summer months..

So thats been my week, been a little busy but today didnt do much but light stuff around the house, been tackling it one day at a time and played my new game tonight, its getting kind of cool to play to.. Nothing gory or anything its rated T for teens and kind of fun.. A nice break from the gory games I play hehe.. So now I am about to ward off and go read my book and sleep; I am pretty tired and way off my sleep schedule ugh..

Hope y'all have a fab week.. Much love!

Love & Light
Laura

Mothers Day..

Hello My Friends,

This is the time we celebrate Mothers Day this weekend.. As I look at this special holiday I find it hard to celebrate and yet I'm a mom myself, well since I got pregnant with my son,Joshua. Being a mom is every girl well almost every girls dream.. There are some women who dont want children, and for those who dont, I respect that, I mean our world is having times of hardship and some have other obligations but for those of who are mom's how do we take Mothers Day and find peace and in God's grace that we are blessed with our children. I dont care how many kids we all have we can have 1 to 100 and still we're all mom's.. I also say those of us who miscarried children are ours also, even tho they are not in our arms but in our hearts and in the arms of Jesus and loved ones to be there waiting to see us when we all get to Heaven..

I see Mothers day as a day to reflect on how I am a mom, and how can I improve on being a good mother to my children. Its not just a day for our kids to say Thanks Mom, or our husbands to praise us for carring our children in childbirth or if we adopted thats still raising children that are to grow and learn of the things in the world and for us to raise them in Godly principals or what ever belief you have..

Also for those of us who lost our mom's on Mothers day or any time in the year and we celebrate that with out them.. I tend to think of when Mohters Day comes around, that I often think of my mom and just wonder what life would be like if she were here and me married and have a son.. I am sure she'd be thrilled and spoil him rotten;) I often wonder how my relationship with my mom would be like now that I am married and a mom; I often think of maybe the conversations I would have or would love to have and learn things about myself as a young child of ages birth till I hit Kindy..

I often think of her and I know she's in spirit with me and even though my own emotions and anger get in the way of good times with my mom which were very few in between but the memories I have I so cherish and love..

So sit back and tell you mom alive or not that you love her and miss her and thank God for his grace to help us be parents.. Help us be mom's who we are created to be weather we stay home with our kids or we have to work and provide food and a roof over their heads.. Enjoy the day with your children and hold them ever so close..

Happy Mothers Day

Love & Light
Laura

Songs/Hymns History..

Hello Loved Ones..

Well you are probably wondering why I put songs/hymns on my blog, well tonight I believe the Lord had me tune into TBN tonight and hear and listen to the old old hymns I grew up singing, such as Amazing Grace, What A Friend We Have In Jesus, How Great Thou Art, Silent Night/Holy Night and I am sure there were many many more..

What amazes me is when I learn the history of those old songs and what comes to life in me today as it was not even as a child.. I grew up singing those hymns and it didnt hit me as it does now as an adult who's lived and done and been through alot in life.. Alot I cant share about but those who know me the "Real" me knows my struggles and the pain as well as our Lord and Savior.. What makes me want to cry hearing those songs and the history is the authors were just ordinary men or women in some cases wrote the words and for what, it wasnt in song yet, it was more into poems, sermons, just written about what they were going through in life, struggles, pain, despaire, and so much more.. Alot of them didnt journal or write things just so they can keep things private, they wrote to maybe help themselves but in the sense, they wanted to help others who might go down a difficult road ahead..

So lets taking the hymn what a friend we have in Jesus, that song so transpires us to want to be close to the Lord as we should and take every thing to God in prayer; every thing meaning our lives, jobs, children, finances, the world we live in today.. With the thigns of the world getting worse and not better, with gas prices going up every day and food rising with it, and yet our pay isnt going up there along with it.. People are scared and yet, what should we be doing? Praying and being and clinging to Jesus in these dark hours of what is going on in our world, in our lives..

Take Amazing Grace; think of the song as an autobigraphical of a man who perhaps didnt do what was right morally or spiritually, yet he made peace with God in his life knowing he'd live knowing God saved him by Grace, by the depts of life and even his own mom's prayers for him to enter the ministry, and later in life he did.. Now I call that an answer to prayer of a mom's heart..

So many I can write on,but the point is, when we learn things such as these old hymns they are alive today as the day they were written and composed to what we know today. So when you stop and think and listen to the words of the old old hymns think of how Great is our God to put ordinary men in life and even today, to write songs that maybe we cant convey the words but deep with in our spirits to sing praise to God..

Well, I hope you all are safe and are blessed by this post I know its not my useal post but thoguht I'd write some thing to encourage y'all.. Much love

Love & Light
Laura

Our Wedding Anniversary..

Hola

Well, we just celebrated 7 yrs togther yesterday (Monday) and it was nice.. We both had a good day, mostly browsed stores, bought Christmas gifts already for some close freinds and family. Then we meant to go bowling but by the time we got there we couldnt go.. They had leagues going..BLAH

Sunday was nice but oh man I was exhasuted.. I fought sleep all day long and finally had to have chocolate and a coffee drink to wake my butt up.. Sunday we went up to drop my son J off, to grandmas for a 2 day visit. Then we visited for a few mins and then we left to get lunch hadnt eaten all day.. So we stopped a Jack N Box for lunch it was OK not the greatest.. Then we browsed stores then went to the movies saw movie 21 w/Kevin Spacey.. Good movie! WOW! Then we got home and I was exhausted and went to bed around 12:30ish?

So Mon got up late but it was ok I needed the sleep.. Then see 1st paragraph.. Then we rented a movie then came home and relaxed while I browsed the web and DH watching TV..

Today we got up sort of late but not really going to bed around 2:30 am.. OY! Then we got up around 11 AM then I showered, dressed, cleaned out the car, and did some dishes and then took DH to work, came back down to town, got the car washed , vacuumed out, then went to get gas, and got a coffee drink.. Drove up to pick up DS and then around 6pm started for home.. So now waiting to get DH from work and relax after that.. So we'll see.. Long day for sure!

Hope ya'll are good and well..

Love & Light
Laura

Spring Near Summer Weather..

Hola

Well, I am not sure if we're getting close to summer weather or not,honestly I hope not.. Today was nice, I was up b4 8 am w/my son patting mommy's arm and waking me up.. Altho DH has been up for 3 days w/him in the mornings so it was my turn.. So I was happy to oblige getting up and spending quality time with him watching noggin.. He was moody today and I hope it evens out by the time he's 3 yrs old, cuz every few months he's moody or happy.. This time around moody big time.. The last 2 nights we've battled going to bed and mommy had to take him back each time but he'd cry and hug me so cute but its night-night not up time.. Tots!

Today we went to Target, the mall to Bath N Body place, and then to the dollar tree then jamba juice to get me a strawberry drink oh so good,and we had a coffee drink at Target.. So it pretty much wired me the rest of the day.. For some reason I crashed yesterday (weds) and just didnt feel good at all.. So we'll see how I felt today cept for my legs hurting pretty bad and did 3.5 loads of wash on Tues but I dont think that was the problem as to why I am sore?

So thats been nice, it was up to 87 today here, hoped it would be only 73 or so.. No a lot warmer than that.. Should have put my son in shorts for it that warm! My 7th anniversary is Monday I guess looking fwd to it.. I honestly do not know what we're gonna do that day or what.. We might do bowling a dinner/movie and my son will be at grandmas from Sun night till Tues afternoon.. I pick him up, so due to me not trusting my mom in law to drive w/him at all.. I am valid in that and glad I am..

So thats about it here,just watched the movie Juno what a stupid movie about a girl who gets pregnant and finds adoptive parents and just blah and the music was worse.. Ugh! Hate that movie honestly.. I didnt want to watch a stupid movie, and tomorrow is Alvin and the chimpmonks for my son josh to watch so we'll watch that with him.. Hope its better we'll see..

Anyway wanted to post b4 I hit the sheets, I am starting to feel tired now; but thats ok, I hope my son wakes daddy up tomorrow and let mommy sleep in..

Love & Light
Laura

Heat Heat Heat, So Not Ready....

Hola Loved Ones

Well, I am to say the last, so not ready for this heat, we were up to 93 degress here in the valley and whew I thought LA was bad, nope! LA was like in the mid 80s and not even close.. I gotta say though I am so not ready for summer, my stomach is already acting up from the heat and what-ever else I ate today.. I am pretty much exhausted right now, I drove down and back from my g/f's and its not a bad drive today was it was Friday, Friday I got held up 2x by traffic jams.. But we had a great time, we bowled, we hit the bed early, then she and I went to a scrapbooking store in LA and the guys went to take the 2 other kids to Krate (SP) and we met up w/them near back at the house... I had my coffee fix so I'm happy, heheh! Then we relaxed and chilled at the house and grabbed a movie for the kids to watch my son Josh had a great time, slept pretty well on a air-bed at the foot of the bed and slept all night long.. Then we were both up around 8ish am b4 9 am actually.. We left around 12:30 today to start back and I am glad we did though.. I am bushed.. We got back into the valley and it was 93 degrees! I am like WHOA! So not ready for this.. We had pizza for dinner and ice-cream and now I am so ready to hit the sheets I am that exhasusted.. But had a great weekend.. It was nice and relaxing besides the drives..

Well, hope y'all had a great time this weekend and been safe.. Much love

Love & Light
Laura

A Fun Weekend Ahead..

Hola Loved Ones

Well what a week or two actually.. The past two weeks have just blown me away on how fat they came and gone.. Altho this week was a little slow but not as bad as useal. I'll start our week out on Sunday.. Sunday was nice, we had a great day actually.. My anxiety had come to full blown that day and so my DH had given me some St. Johns Wort to help calm me down and once it kicked in I was ok.. We did major shopping on Sunday I wanted to go to Wal-Mart for some pants (blue jeans) and a tank top.. Found those and pick up a few things but went to Wallgreens for the rest of it,since we were in the same parking lot and had to get DH's blood preasure meds to.. So I picked up shampoo, shaving cream for me, diapers for DS.. Then I wanted to go out to the Christian book store and check out some cd's and I bought 2 cds one is Michael English Prodical Comes Home and the book his autobiography of his life , and a cd a friend of mine Carrie told me about is Aaron Shust.. So I bought that and got a prayer book for DH to see if he can grow in that area of his life as well as me. Then we left there and went to Bath and Body where I purchased my g/f Tangee's daughter's birthday gifts and stuck in a special surprise.. Her birthday is the end of this month, a few days after our anniversary.. Some how I got to remember that..

Then we started home, I was bushed and pretty tired and anxious so we came home, and then I left for some alone time to myself and dropped off the movies and went to the store for some beer, we drink Coors Light its the best beer cuz it dont make us hot but helps us sleep.. So then we watched our show Big Brother and had a nice time.. Monday we got up and I knew I was going to have to take him to work due to him only working 2 hrs so I dropped him off, went to down-town to pay court fees 2 more to go, yeah! Then I went to McD's for lunch with my son Joshua and had to eat, and wanted a coffee drink but didnt have time to grab one so we decided to go pick up DH who was off by then and then we got our coffee drinks and did some running around for a little while then came home relaxed watched tv and talked..

Tuesday was fine, didnt need to take DH to work due to I had enough here to do, laundry and cleaning up.. Which I did.. Then watched my show on TV The Biggest Looser.. Wenesday came and I didnt take DH to work, so I cleaned some and didnt do alot had alot of anxiety again so I paced myself some.. Watched Ghost Hunters that was really good and watched Big Brother.. So now that comes to today. Today we got up around 9-10 am and the maintance had to fix my shower it went wonky on me yesterday and warned DH about it.. Then showered, dressed, took off to the dollar tree for some things and Walgreens then home to finish a quick load of wash and wash my new pants I got on Sunday.. I going to recheck our bag and make sure I got every thing,and put together the smaller bag in the morning to be sure thats all done, is half way done.. I'll load what I can tonight and in the AM we'll finish the rest of the loading..

So thats my week,I'll be out of town for 2 days, and will be back Sunday night some time not late but not early either.. So anyway hope y'all have a great week and weekend..Stay safe and in the Lords Arms.. Muah!

Love & Light
Laura

PS. As you can see I like Harry Potter! He he!

New Month..

Hola All

Well, here we are a new month already.. Wow! March went so slow, I guess due to 31 days and this month I believe has 31 days also.. Yup it does;) Our 7th anniversary is this month on the 21st, man 7 yrs ago I can remember my wedding exactly as it happened; and the snow the night before; what a time of my life, to find freedom and privacy! To my friends who know whats that is like to have some thing of your own to call your own, you'll know for sure..

This week just went right under my feet.. Its Thursday already and I am going huh already?! I am amazed how fast this week had gone.. I just did some laundry, went to get soda for this weekend, and I so wanted a coffee drink :( I'll get one soon though.. I ate a bite to eat, and just now folded laundry for the next few days, mostly towels I had to do, now just need to vacuum and do a light load of dishes.. My son J is watching Noggin on TV enjoying himself..

There's been alot of high emotions this week I Think its due to being on my period and Pmsing big time.. Mostly glad that its over now though and can look forward to seeing my g/f soon in 1 week, yeah! So happy about it, I can shout.. Havent seen her since Christmas.. So thats been about it here.. Just pray that I can keep loving my mother in law spite of her stupid comments she's been making lately makes me want to strangle her so bad.. I hate the fact that she can sit there and make comments and not know me at all.. I am my son's mother and she raised 2 kids already, so get over it, I am raising my son as I see fit.. Its hard to have family not interfier with life but yet they cant keep their mouth shut for long enough to confide in them.. Most families are like that though they all got to blab and open thier mouths to keep the world turning.. Well forget that in time for me..

The weather here is great, 72-75 degress and spring.. Even though my allegies have been bad, its been a good week with that. Just battled a headache the past 24 hrs.. UGH! Well, I am thinking of going and taking a quick nap before it gets to much later.. Hope all is well with everyone..

Love & Light
Laura

A Great Day...

Hola All

Well, today was a great day spite of not getting much sleep last night and its been trying with my son Josh.. I had an up-set stomach last night, and so I had to take some thing to sooth it over.. Took awhile to. Then this morning got up oh before 8 Am and checked out-side due to the extreem winds.. This morning was very cold! So I took a hot shower, dressed, did my hair and makeup; grandma came by to baby-sit my son Josh.. So we left around 9:45 to get to the court- house and meet up with the lawyer and fill out more paper work in case, then we waited about 2.5 hrs before we were called.. We were out of there by 1:30ish? We were nearly the last people called up.. So we left there, went to lunch at Sizzler oh so good stuff! We at the buffett food ,salads, chicken, taco's soup any thing, oh so good, but now I am hungry! We're gonna have orange chicken w/noodles tonight, I fed Josh and hope he'll go to sleep due to him being sooo grumpy today and whinny.. Drives me crazy of course I am close to PMSing and starting the monthly due but ugh!

So the buyer for my Chevy S10 called last night and I didnt return his call due to not sure if I could sell the truck and we called our lawyer and confirmed and they confirmed with us that we could so its now has a new home,<> I know I'll have a new car in 6mo to 1 yr so no problem but its hard to see a car I worked so hard for have a new home but it needed some one who can fix it and care for it better.. So that makes me happy.. Well thats about it here, just chilling and waiting for my son to rest I think he's having one of his crabby days.. OY! Well, I am gonna go eat and watch movies..

Love & Light
Laura

He is Risen! He is Risen Indeed!

Hola All

HE IS RISEN, HE IS RISEN INDEED! HALLUJAH!

Well with that as my first start of today, thought I'd post a little bit and then edit later if I can.. Today started out with a well intended heart for celebrating the Lord's Ressurection.. So I get up at 8 AM and half the night didnt sleep a wink tossed/turned half of it so I am very exhausted right now.. But never the less I am here posting.. So I get up head to the shower, and start my day , dress, do all the good stuff, get DH up and then begin to find a way around and go get gas for the car, a card for Grandpa and breakfast for us.. Since DS has eaten he's good to go.. So I barely get back b4 my MIL gets here and I'm rushing to eat, and get the last min stuff together, and then havaing to run back into the house to grab DS's cup and other little things and rush back out the door, and drive to Visalia.. So we get there, and course DS started screaming cuz he's not been in GGrandpas place but loves GUncle Rick's place.. Same format but flipped coursee I like the setup better at Rick's place than any other place, such a great place to.. The colors in their place is wonderful and so soothing.. I hope to find colors like that for my future home in 2 yrs or so... I pray! So we all did an Easter Egg hunt for DS who had a enourmous time then we ate lunch/dinner and all relaxed and visited awhile. Thats where, Uncle Rick and I had a very deep conversation.. It was helpful and a light turned on a few times.. So we had fun and swapped Emails to! Yes! Then we did the big birthday cake for Grandpa and gifts, we left around 7:30-8:00 and got home shortly after 9:00 pm.. I am bushed and ready for some rest.. So thats my day and pray y'all had a wonderful day.. And celebrated the Lords ressurection with freinds/family ..

HE IS RISEN!

Love & Light
Laura

Good Friday

Hello Freinds

Today is good Friday, we know what this means in the Christian world and what it holds for us as people who follow the Lord Jesus Christ.. Today was when he was cruxified and died for all sins of the wold.. Imagine the sins of the world? Who can hold such promise of freedom and life eternal? I sure cant, but yet our Lord knew he had to battle his human nature and what Father God wanted.. We know he battled that he didnt want to die, he wanted the cup passed from him to live but yet he surrendered total and completly now to me that was just the main battle, it wasnt hanaging on a cross to die, the true battle was surrendering totally to Father God's will and to die for all man kind.. Imgine trying to do what you would like to do but knowing God wanted it done a certain way.. Total surrender is what we must learn even in the darkest hour of our lives to give to Father God in total submission.. I know its hard to do but we must look to Jesus who had to battle his own emotions his own will to want to live but at the same time he's God to, so he had to for it was from the beginning of time that he'd come to die for all man kind so we can have that precious relationship with him for all eternity.. I do pray that when you look at your circumstances and your life that no matter what we would do what Jeuss did "Not my will, but your will Lord" let it be our prayer that we say that in all we do. . Amen?

Remember as we embark on Easter Sunday that we celebrate Jesus's life and his glorious ressrection that we must know and have faith that he's no longer dead but has RISEN.. Conqured the grave and death and freed old saints and new to come from Satan's grasp and find liberty and love, compassion and most of all, eternal life..

HE IS RISEN, HE IS RISEN INDEED!

Love & Light
Laura

Tiny Little Irks..

Hola All

I know, my blog is gonna be a little funny right now due to my tital of it but you'll see why in a minute cuz this totally discribes my week.. Lets see where shall I start? I think I'll Sunday.. Well, Sunday got here and DH wasnt feeling to hot, and decided to stay home all day , ok thats fine. So I went to the store, and did some quick grocery shopping.. So I got home put away the stuff, decided on dinner and then we watched our useal Sunday shows had a nice time.. DS was great all day to, no major problems.. Monday DH said it's my day to do what I wanted and this weekend we'll do some thing good for Josh.. So I'm all ok, so we went to Save-mart and got a GC ( Gift certificate) for my BIL (Brother in law) and a card.. I drove out so we could drop it off to my SIL and talk with her a few mins.. Then we browsed some stores that are new in that area, so much nicer now, its a mall but its outside where you walk in the fresh air.. So Dh and I went into a kitchen store and I got him a knife bag for his job.. Then got some ideas for him and his grandma.. Then I said I was hugry and so we needed to eat and we ate at Carls Jr. An OK lunch.. Then we went to Best Buy where we browsed some stores there, and had a nice time, I got a new game for my PS 3 . It a PS 2 game called Silent Hill Origins.. Such a cool game!

Then we left there, and got a coffee drink at Starbucks it was OK, not what I wanted.. Then we started our way home to start cleaning our bed room and I played my game an hour and helped DH clean it looks good but needs a little more work..Here we are to Tuesday.. Tuesday I got up and my eye Dr called well the place did,and my glasses are fixed and ready to pick up.. So I am like ok, so Dh and I had an argument but all is good, and so that day was spent doing not much.. Weds comes and I get up and shower/dress and leave real quick to get my glasses and guess what the eye Dr place was closed for lunch at 11:30 ! Good Lord knows how long that note was up there could have been at 11:00 am till 1:00 pm.. So again no car to go back, so now I have to maybe try and go in the morning.. So I was royally pissed off but oh well what can I do, my Irish side wanted to scream,cuss and just get plain mad.. I am surprised I wasnt really all that upset just annoyed that I wasted my time driving down there.. So I went to mail Easter Cards and got myself a coffee drink at 31flavors and came home.. Slipped my mind to pay our car insurance.. OY! So today is what Thursday. So today we get up and I wake up with a start like some thing neended to be done but wasnt sure, so I got up put sodas in the freezer, and got J up and checked our phones, plugged them in.. Then I was looking at my phone going whats this local number? So I told DH call it and find out, and it was the attorny's office saying we didnt pay the 1st installment on the court fees due last Friday and we were all going oh chit! So we find out we needed to go down there and pay it so we both head down, course DH called his work and said I'll be a lil late and we went down knowing again 1 car so we finally found the place thank God for cell phones! Then I go in and he's sitting in the car w/our son J, and waiting makeing sure the meeter didnt run out, and it only took me 10-15 mins tops.. So I paid that and we called the attorney back and told them we paid it and we'll be ready for next week.. Then this afternoon I get a call from them again an she was all you need to do the 2nd part of the class and I said yes I know, I did DH's yesterday and I dont have enough to pay for the 2nd class for myself till Monday but once I do that, I can do it and she was all oh ok just be sure you do, and I am like I will.. So I'll see if I can do it tomorrow or early Monday.. Court isnt till Thurs so I have time..

So thats been my week, just tiny little irks as my blog says.. Here we are on Easter Sunday soon on Sunday morning.. I hope we each celebrate the time and what the Lord has done in your life and heart this coming year.. May we always remember this Sunday as a speacial time to be with family/freinds and celebrate what Jesus did for us on the cross and his Ressurection.. Remember HE IS RISEN!

Well, off to get a few things done.. Hope y'all have a great weekend and blessings.. Much love

Love & Light
Laura

Blessed..

Hello Love Ones

Well this week has been nice, actually relaxing at the same time.. Nothing big going on here.. Just DH and I had a little conversation for 2 nights and all is going well now,hope it stays that way but we both have our ups/downs.. I just thank God that we can communicate our feelings like the day after the inital conversation, and all is going good.. Some times I think married couples have spats or bad conversations due to one being over-whelmed or just not hearing the other person.. I totally trying to understand my DH's point of view and told him so.. And I see him trying to see how my days go and my dealing with life and our son.. So now just hopeing all is good.. I cant wait for my glasses to get fixed and back in a week or so.. That'll be nice, cuz I am wearing my back-up glasses and I am ok with them but I need my new pair..

Lets see what else? Weather wise is great, we're in the 60-70's here and getting spring. We changed the clocks Sun moring b4 bed around 3 AM and I am still adjusting to the light change and temp changes.. I know my son is still adjusting to.. Took him a couple days.. But the only part I hate about srping even though it does bring new life and the grace of God.. Since I am mentioning God's grace, might as well share about his un-failing love and we are coming up on Easter in 2 weeks.. Let us remember God's love for us and that he died on the cross.. So always remember Jesus's love for you as we enter on Easter Sunday.. I'll post more about that as we get closer..

Well life is great, I am happy and pray that things stay calm for a few days and weeks.. Altho I think it will.. I see God's grace even when I am upset or things dont go right,but I do know God is working on us as a family meaning me, DH and DS.. So I am so greatful and thankful for that and again thankful for my freinds whom hear me complaine and upset over stuff but they always offer a ear and advice.. So thank you girls:) Love you ..!

Well off to enjoy today hope you do to:)

Love & Light
Laura

Busy Week..

Hola Loved Ones

Well, its been a very busy week, so sorry havent been able to keep up this week with all thats going on and posting about it. I'll start Sunday night, went to bed I guess an decent hour, couldnt sleep, tossed/turned woke up every hour, so on and so forth, got up at 5:40 and took a hot shower and dressed, got DS and DH up for the day.. DS was up already and ready to roar, so we all were ready to walk out the door at 7am.. Left got fuel for the car, and then drinks and headed up the mountain.. Got there, then DH started the yard work, mom and I and DS went to get the car washed, and a money order to pay rent, and me grab a coffee drink I so needed.. Then we went back to the house, I put DS down for nap time finally he laid down to sleep for 2.5 hrs or 3? Then mom and I washed the car, vacuumed it out she washed our coats that were in the trunk, wipped down the stuff and all that.. So now it looks brand-new car again..Smells wonderful..

Then DH took a shower after it was all done yard-work time.. We had turkey crosauns (SP)? for lunch was good stuff! Then we came home around 4ish and got the rent in on time.. We turned around to leave for the store, to pickup dinner items to make chinese food YUM! Cma home and I about crashed.. We ate and watched Tv and headed to bed around 2am.

Tuesday got up showered/dressed, took DH to work, and had to run some errends, like ship a bday gift to my g/f and she got it today, she loved it that made my day; so DS and I had a great day. Tuesday night, we me and DH pulled the dishes and stuff out of the kitchen, bathroom and all that ready for pest control.. Glad we did to..

Wednesday we got up so late, I crashed on Tuesday night and didnt wake till 9:30 am Weds, I was so bad.. So got up had to cancell DH's Dr. appt, then get ready to leave when Pest Control got here which was 11:30 am so we left grab lunch hang out, brose a store, took him to work, and here's the bulk of my day.. Started to go out to the Goodguys for my car to be lubed/oiled and to come to find out it wasnt where it was posted on the coupon but the one place I did reach (Finally) they took my coupon and said I needed to buy some tires.. So I'm all uh ok, how much is this gonna cost, and the guy ( was so nice) said how much you got and I said about $100 and he goes I can cut you a deal on 2 tires and I am like OK, then he comes back and goes that'll be 3 tires and I am ok, so whats more.. So I was able to get 3 tires for lil over $200 so Praise God.. I was sooo happy! So my car is done for awhile and just glad to see it in good condition.. Yes!

Wenesday night I got home aired out the house, ran to the store (Drove) and got some stuff there, came home tackled the cleaning, cleaned my cat's box and scrubbed it down, mopped the floors, clean the bathroom, commetted the tub/sink/toilet.. So now things are all fresh and smell great in the house, yeah! I took a hot shower, dressed in sweats and bathed DS and dressed him comfty and left to get DH from work, got home, put DS to bed, and started to put things back in place and eat and watch Ghost Hunters (New Season) had a good time, so I went to bed around 1 am due to about to drop anyway from exhaustion.. Slept till after 11 am this morning..

Then DS and I stayed home today and enjoyed every minute of it.. We both took a long 2 hr nap and felt better, and tonight bam a major headache hit me so I took a hot shower and did my girly stuff and talked to my g/f Carrie via IM tonight briefly.. Ate a bite to eat and now chilling about to hit the sheets again since my headache is still lingering and I am still kind of tired from the past few days..

Well, I know this is a very long winded post but its the week and alot has gone on and happened.. So hope to rest in the next few days and putter around the house and light cleaning.. DH is doing dishes for me tonight awe my sweetie:) Well, may the Lord bless you and keep you..

Love & Light
Laura

February 29 2008

Hola

Well, lets see this week has gone slow but fast, amazing how time flies.. Not much happening cept for today, we are "offically" filed for bankruptcy and it a huge relief on our shoulders, and we are fully paid up cept for the court fees which will get paid in 5 monthly installments no big really.. I am just happy that we can get through this and stop talking about it and the bills and what-not. We'll do the 2nd part of the class which I'll do due to my DH working and its a 4 hr class so I can do that in like 1 or 2 days.. So that'll be cool..

Lets see what else, here we are on the leap year day of 2008 and wonder whats more leap years we're gonna have? Makes one think and wonder before more.. Tomorrow is March 1st and a new month,and I pray a good month to. Then we can have a good summer and not worry about running the A/C and enjoy being cool with out much worry.. I'll enjoy that and finally maybe no talk of money issues and bills.. That'll be nice, but right now I need to focus more on my home how to make it more inviting, cuz I have some ideas but now that things financially are calming down, maybe I can bring my focus more on my home and start the process of getting rid of things that look shabby and buy new and make it more relaxing atmosphere.. I am definatly committed in doing just that and not on things that are only for a short time and b4 I need to do some thing else..

Well, just hope all is well with all of you, and just keep the faith, its hard even for me, but I know God is faithful and just to keep us on the right path and often lets us go off just to remind us of his glory and his greatness before we head back on and go man, I need to stay on this path.. Some times the path isnt clear like right now for DH and I but I know things are going to be good and finally OK.. Near celebrating 7 yrs together marriage wise, is a great step and good accomplishment.. Hope to keep the love strong in the Lord and in each other, and keep the communication open for us to keep learnig about each other and about our love for each other.. We've been through the refiners fire many times,and we've always came out on top and stronger together.. So if you want to know what the prayer request is; its just that, to keep going strong and not let trivial things get in the way of whats truly for our love and our marriage.. Money may make the world turn,but love should be so much stronger than any circumstances we find our-selves in..

May y'all have a great new start on a new month.. See you in March!

Love & Light
Laura

Change of Theme

Well, today's is a good deal. Last night I changed the theme on my blog, and much warmer colors and just more not so busy type blog which I like simple and consise.. The one thing though I do enjoy is some day to have a home in warm colors and just surround in love and abide in the warmth of things..

Today was a little stressful but not bad in all in all, even though we started to take care of things and hey I might even have a buyer for my Truck... So I'm happy with things in all in all..

Yes I am an adoptee from age 4yrs old but I was placed at 3mo old near 4mo old.. My parents were loving even though as I got older things started to be more and more.. I miss them so much they passed away 10 yrs ago this year.. My dad espically, I wish I had a scanner to post a picture of my dad. He served in WWII in the Navy, I'd love to have a picture of him as a young man in the Navy.. So now I am near the age of 33 and just enjoying life and my family..

I know I post alot about stress and money and my Husband but thats our life and what we do nearly every week.. So I hope y'all arent to bugged about our every day life, in a few years it will get interesting I am sure.. But for now, I share my life as much as I can to my readers, and share great moments.. Much love to you all...

Love & Light
Laura

Spring Cleaning..

Hola

Well, I got to admit we've spring cleaned tonight and it was major cleaning.. It started over the period of the weekend but last night and tonight have been major cleaning like scrubbing down walls, cleaning out cabnets, tossing stuff we dont need or use.. Whew!

Well let me start today out first and then we'll come back to that.. We got up around 8:30-9:00 this morning.. Then we started to get ready to leave at least we thought was 10am.. Well not exactly.. We left around finally 1:00 pm; or 12:30? Anyway the pest control got here and was about to start on our place.. So we were like ok good..Then we left to get lunch at Ihop; then went to the bank to cash DH's check, went to our bank and I put money in it; then we left to get air in the tires; stopped at H&R Block to get last years 2006 taxes (copy) then we left for Target on Clovis here.. Not the one up the street but the smaller one.. Had a great time there, we bought 3 movies and 1 game.. Yeah! The movies were Reservations, Harry Potter Goblet of Fire, (Had to replace that one) and Snow Buddies.. The final one was for my son J. He wanted that movie about dogs he loves dogs.. Esp dog movies and stuffed animals. O I forgot the game.. For my PS 3 its Jericho (SP?) will double check that.. I got it for $34.00 some thing instead of $49.00 It got marked down from $59 each step and found it for that price.. I about fell over.. So I was happy that was my valentine.. I'll get more charms, in a month or so.. No big..hehe

Then we got a coffee drink at 31 Flavors on the way home to open the windows to air out the place, and then left to stop at Trader Joes and Longs.. Where I nearly forgot dipars and soda so I got those items.. Then I called it quites there, I was tired and ready to come home to battle the house cleaning.. We worked on the place, got the kitchen/bathroom done.. I did the bathroom and Dh did the kitchen.. Both look great and clean and best of all, NO germs! Yeah! So that takes me to the first paragraph I wrote.. See above..

So now I am chilling after 3 loads of laundry, a hot bath to kill a headache with 2 advil to help and soak and did lady stuff shave legs and the such.. So I am happy all that I have to do is mail a gift to my g/f and then just relax mostly and chill.. I am glad for that..

So thats been my day and week so far.. I know I only post 1x a week but some times I can post more if alot is happening and this week a wee bit more going on..hehe!

Well, I pray y'all are rested and in the Lord.. Stay safe!

Love & Light
Laura

Oh PS..HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

De-Bugging Again..

Aahhhhh! I had a whole post written and it ate it again! Arg..

Hola Again

Well lets see where should I start? I guess from last week.. I went to get some stuff at the store before my DH goes to work..I come home and the "Manager" comes up to me while checking cars for expired tags and asked me if my home was clean? And I was like "What"? So she goes well is your house clean? And I am like yea and? She went on to proceed that the "bugs" were gonig up into the vacant apartment upstairs.. And I SO wanted to say well thats not my fault, now is it? I guess one of the "Maintance" came in to do routine checks on stuff like filters and yada yada,you get my drift well there was a "Little" bit of cheerio's on the floor and previous nights dishes in the sink, but nothing big, I mean we eat and relax and do the dishes in the AM.. Well I guess the "mainance" told the manager that our house was "Dirty" according to him.. Well hello I have a 2 yr old son and he does make a mess when he eats, he's still learning to eat with a spoon/fork and master it.. I do sweep up the food after he eats but some times I do get busy with other things such as laundry or I do dishes things like this not that I'm careless on my home.

So I am livid .. When we paid rent on the 1st, the "manager" asked my DH if our house was clean and DH goes yes, and she goes well if its not cleaned up we'll ask you to move..I was like WTF?! O I was so angry.. She thinks that we're the cause of the bug problem.. No we arent the cause of any thing.. We've told them that there were bugs since last August.. Did they do much about it ? NO.. We've set off 3 bombs, we've sprayed we've cleaned we did every thing, vacuumed up old eggs, swept up shedded wings off the bugs.. I mean we're constantly cleaning some thing up.. Last night my DH cleaned behind the fridge, it was disgusting.. I sweep by the fridge every other day due to crap all over my floor.. So he got behind the fridge and stared cleaning and mopped the wall, and sprayed behind there.. I mean we cant un-plug a fridge or not use a stove for cooking to prevent bugs.. Seems the manager dont see that the apartments are "Infested" majorly.. I keep the place clean to the best of my ability and still no avail on getting rid of bugs..

So I am so fed up but no money to move right now, we've got to do some stuff about our financial stuff out of the way first.. We're pretty close really.. So just gonna do that real soon in fact.. But I cant take the "managers threats" and think its all us.. I am going to talk to the Pest Control and tell him that its NOT our fault there's bugs, its the Manager's fault for not keeping up or his company's fault for not coming out when they said they were.. So I am a little fed up..

Other than that, not much is happening.. DH is fighting a cold and we're going to his mom's for a few hours tomorrow and then on Tues we'll go get his check,cash it and put some of it in the bank and then from there I dont know,due to them coming at 10am to spray we have to be out of the house for at least 4 1/2 hrs before we can re-enter the place and start putting things away again.. So as y'all can see its just like I want to scaream..! AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway thats been our week here, I know I dont post often not every day due to such high volume of stuff I'm doing .. I did 3 loads of wash tonight and still got towels to wash ( I just did wash on Tues) of last week.. Seems every 4 days or so there's more to do.. *Sigh*

Anywho, be blessed and rested ..

Love & Light
Laura

Super-Bowl Sunday...

Hola All. Well where shall I begin? Today the Giants won and boy what a game! I was so impressed by the Giants team.. So we had a semi good day .. The game topped it off.. The day started off late.. I wont say what time we got up :-X but it was late.. I felt so bad to.. Wonder why? Well I did finish the book by Nicolus Sparks The Choice and enjoyed the book emenslly. So it was a good evening.. So happy. Today my sweet husband got a call from his mom and she basically chewed him out again over not "helping" his sister and such but honestly his sister is 27 yrs old and can ask for help if she needs it honestly.. She didnt help us move when we moved from up to down stairs.. So I dont know.. Anyway thats been our day.. Talk to my g/f in via IM and then left to get food at the store and then came home battled the rain and then settled to eat and be happy with the game.. So its been a quiet evening and so throughly enjoyed it so much.. Glad that Dh and I had a great day together.. All I got to do now is make an Dr. Appt w/my GYN and see if I'm all set to get pregnant again.. Then talk to her about some things I can do to keep myself level and such or a referals.. So we'll see.. Anyway just thought I'd post .. God bless y'all very much...

Stressed and Axiety..

Hola Loved Ones..

Well, as you can see from my post, yes I am stressed and axious on stuff.. Really a long story today.. When we got up we found out my mom in law was taken by ambulance to a local hospital down here so far no news on whats going on and its getting into evening.. I am tempted to call but I hate to call and no news on whats up, so I learn to sit and wait.. My mom in law cant keep things down, meds, food I guess.. She's on pain meds for her arm, shoulder.. I am sure my sis in law is there at the hospital cuz her job is close by and can get there in two mins flat.. For me it'll take a good twenty mins in good traffic or not.. I guess no new is good news.. So Dh went to work and DS took a nap and I relaxed as much as I can..

The 2nd part of the axiety is this.. My apartments manager I guess was told we still have bugs, well the problem is I clean every day and we still have them. So DH take the rent money over to the office and she was all saying to him , you need to keep your place clean, blah blah blah and or we'll ask you to move.. Now mind you, I am pretty anal on cleaning and I have a husband who's such a lazy ass who dont do shit unless I beg him to..

So we talked and I was near tears due to the stress level gone up and just havent dealt with it to well.. See the maintance came in to do their thing check our apt and for mold, mildew (thinks I'm allergic to) and change filters and yada yada.. Well, I guess they told her (the manager) and so she told DH.. Now If I had gone in there, I would have gone on the deep end and told her exactly what I thought and that I do clean, we have a child, things are gonna be a lil messy but not extreem.. So DH and I talked and he agreed to start getting up off his ass and help. I'd like to see that more often than not.. Honsetly I dont know what to say or do. I've begged him for montsh to help me and he will for a day and not do a damn thing for weeks.. He even said that also.. So he knows I mean business when it comes to OUR home not just ME and the home..

Anyway thats my day.. I am just mentally tired, emotionally drained and just needing some space.. UGH.. LIFE! O well God is in control and I gotta give it to him or I'll go completely nuts..

Love & Light
Laura

Winter Cleaning..

Hola All..

Well today was a major winter cleaning day.. My DH who decided to tackle the closet and for that I am glad that he did, but one tiny problem the rest of the room looks like crap, and now my living room is crappy.. I guess to clean one or all of it has to be crap b4 it looks nice.. I hate that part! AHHH! Anyway we got rid of at least 12 or 13 bags of cloths, and shoes.. Amazing though how much we accumalated or didnt throw out a few years ago.. I got rid of cloths that are way out of style and just didnt need any more.. A few pieces were 7yrs old.. Thats bad.. So that part is good, so I am relieved.. Tomorrow DH will take it all over to good will and drop it and then come get me and DS and go pick up his check and then cash it then go and get the freezer grocery shopping done.. For that I am glad to see get done, I've begged DH to let me go to Oakhurst (My home town) and get food on the g/c we had.. He refused and claimed he "forgot" about a $100 check he had.. Uhuh.. Sure hun..

So tonight I'm about to climb the walls due to the place looking messy and its like I work my ass off to make it look nice in the common areas and he has to go and make a bigger mess in the other areas that arent common.. UGH I even napped today and was tired and my allergies are bad to.. Depsite the rain storm we had today and last night it is like ugh.. So I am so ready to retire and read a book.. I finished a book called The Bone Garden, boy what a great book to read.. I cant think of the author, if you want to know, those of you who have MySpace check it out there, its on one of my postings..

Anyway, just got DS ready for bed, and by 11pm I'll turn his light off and he'll sleep, he took a nap today thats why he's still up.. Plus we just ate dinner, late I know. We worked on the room for 2 hrs and it still needs work.. So we'll get there.. So hope y'all had a great week and weekend.. Ready for a new week.. I think this is the last week of this month? So this month has been slow! AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Plus all my DH talks about is money and taxes shit which is another things that drives me insane and ready to bust him one.. I swear if I dont own wood, I'd take a 4x4 and go WHAP! To knock some sense into him.. We havent been to church all this month and he promised me that we'd go ,have we? NO.. AHH! As you can see things are good/bad but hey what can a girl do? He did take care of DS all day so that was nice.. Did clean and is cleaning so I shouldnt complaine but I am about to go out of my mind! Lord help!

Love & Light
Laura

Rain, Rain Rain and Loving It!

Hola All

Hope y'all are well.. Well this week has been interesting.. To say the least things are calmer now than they were earlier in the week on Mon/Tues.. My DH got his license renewed with out a problem and I am glad and I cant wait to get his check on Monday and go grocery shopping, course I hope I can go this week, maybe tomorrow if he'll let me have the car:)

I talked to a couple good solid girl/friends this week and both are great and easy to confide in about problems and needed advice, both are gifted in different areas and thats a solid blessing to thank you sisters, you know whom you are.. ;)

So just playing catch up this week, course I finally let DH or convince him is more the word to let me do some laundry and take $20 and do the 5.5 loads I had .. When he walked out with me to see how much I had gotten started he was floored, I was doing 4 loads and still had 1.5 to finish.. He was like wow, so $10 wouldnt have been enough and I'm all well not really not counting the weekend and such to. So we'll see.. Its been raining as you can see my tital of this weeks blog, course California is getting blasted by this storm and now in places and Fwy's being shut down and small towns such as Oakhurst and North Fork shutting down and schools cancelled and just ton of stuff gonig on.. So we're supposed to see a break and then a few more showers but next week according to a channel we have here is KSEE 24 news and it said we're due for sun/clouds next week no rain.. So we'll see!

Its been nice being home and not have to go out in this rain, even though my fav thing to do is drive in it.. I prefere to curl up with a blanket and a good book and a soda pop.. But having a tot and watching him to be sure he's safe well curling up to a book isnt gonna work till bed time for DS..hehe

Well thats about it here, just waiting to get the weekend here.. Mostly due to DH going to work tomorrow early from 1pm-9pm and Sat morning from 6am-2pm so, not much time but after work Sat, I have him from Sat evening till Tuesday he goes back to work normal hours.. Yeah! I cant wait.. I'm still waiting on my ATM card and checks from WM (washington mutual) bank and its taking a while for me to get them.. They said a week and its lil over that now.. HMM wonder whats taking so long! Anyway hope to have that soon as possible so I can put in my DH's checks and such till we deal with some financial matters and again only close freinds know about that much of what we're doing.. Family will not know much about our decisions or can do much about it.. Sucks but its the truth..

Well, I gotta go see what my kid is up to.. So hope y'all have a great week and be blessed..

Love & Light
Laura

DH's birthday....

Hola All...

Well as you can see, the tital of my post is my Hubby's birthday.. Today was nice, we took a shower, ( he needed one) and so I wanted one.. So we went to browse the Dollar Tree well Dh did, I didn't care one way or the other really.. So we called his grandma and so we went over to her house for dinner and had an ok time.. DS loved it and so we came home around 7ish and DS ate dinner and had a warm bath and now in bed after getting into enormous trouble.. So hope he'll sleep awhile.. Then my wonderful DH cleaned off my desk and helped move it over some and then, I went through the trash that was all over it, then I wrote out thank-you cards and all I gotta do now is address them and send them out on Monday, a list of things we're doing Monday to.. Be a very long day! So we'll be up early that day and get stuff done, so we wont run around all over da place doing stuff..

Tomorrow is when the family comes down and we go out to dinner for DH's birthday, even though it was today, we still have to celebrate with the rest of the family.. I pick up DH's cake tomorrow afternoon , if we attend church then we'll come home, eat and then I"ll do that.. So no big deal.. I am looking forward to picking up the cake..

Lets see thats about it.. Then Monday we'll go eat out with DH's grandma even though we were over there having dinner tonight it was OK but eh, I could eat a chicken quediea which I made DH make.. hehe! Anyay thats been our weekend so far.. Just chilling mostly.. Glad that things are about to slow down.. I have set up online payments for our bills and such so that'll make it a little less footbwork but its still gonna be awhile b4 my checks come in and my new ATM card hope Mon/Tues.. I'll be so glad and relieved!

Well, hope y'all have a great weekend.. Much love

Love & Light
Laura

Adjusting to Life..

Hola

I thought this picture would fit into how I feel and knowing Jesus is there holding me and our family in a way that only he can do.. So take heed that this picture isnt just for me but for those of you as well.:)

I want to learn basic spanish some how.. Anyway life is being adjusted very much so.. The past couple days I've had nothing but headaches and stress.. All in all things are going to calm down and keep focus on the Lord, is all we can do.. I am happy to say that my Dh worked this morning even though he's crashed right now, and was home with us this afternoon.. I went to get us some free movies (free rentals from Blockbuster) we get the movies online and you can return them for free rents.. I am so desprately trying to cut down on the dollar going out and keeping it in as much as possible.. That is taking some work.. But all in all, life is ok.. My g/f and I talked the past few hours and O I miss our coffeee nights so bad.. She and I talked about money matters and she knew that we were struggling, and so desparately needing some answers.. She and I discussed getting my wee-one ready for pre-school in the fall so this week, I will be looking into that, and I want to look into some free stuff I can with my son while trying to get pregnant with baby 2.. I know some might say well, with all the finanical stuff why try and raise another child ? Well to be honest its my way of trusting in God to pull through and to keep helping us stay afloat.. I know most dont understand that and thats ok.. No one needs to understand..

So tonight has been basically snacking and enjoying each others company.. My son went to bed pretty good tonight due to no nap today, he was to wired up to sleep.. So hope tomorrow we'll get him on a schedule again.. I am trying some thing new with his bed time routine and so far it seems to be working..

There's alot to think about and take care of around here, but all in all, I want things to be clutter free not just my home but in my mind to.. To much thinking can do some damage if you let it, by giving you headaches and stress instead of falling on our face and ask God to take it all from us and to handle it.. Which is where we are at this point in our life.. We'll be celebrating 7yrs in April together and I hope and pray we can keep it together so we wont go down a dark path in life like I havent been on a dark path since I was born.. Life should be sun-shine and love and grace from above..

For one I am grateful to have my son.. Many times I was told I couldnt have children.. Well, God prooved that to me he can do all things if we keep the faith and do our best to walk in his grace.. I have seen his grace over and over again in life, esp since I got saved.. So I just need to find that place in my life to keep being devoted to him and him alone..

I am greatful for those whom I have friends and you know who you are.. You mean alot to me and I thank God each day for that.. Y'all are blessing from above and grace and mercy each day I get to talk to you or see you.. That keeps my world going to know that God uses friends to keep us ticking and focused on what the task we need at hand each day.. To lift us up when we need it and rebuke us when we need it.. So thank you ...

Well, its 1:00 am and I am tired, I need to see if I can get Dh in the shower and bed time.. We're both tired mentally and just needed much rest.. Tomorrow is another day and I am glad for it due to Gods mercy is new each morning..

Love & Light
Laura

Deep Conversation....

Hola All..

Well, tonight DH and I discussed a very deep conversation.. Nothing bad but it can turn to bad if we allow that to happen.. Dh and I discussed financial matters, how much we'd need to find a way out of this big burden of problems.. He's discussed banrupcy and I was against it at first with out truly realizing that he might be right.. So we're gonna look into it.. We discussed the fact that if we continue on this path of financial problems we will not be together in 3 yrs.. We both know it in the back of our minds but again its very hard to say for sure,unless we dont start changing things now.. So I ask that y'all keep us in prayer over this decision and thats its the right one in the near future.. We only make so much and I think its the hardest part to make this choice, and even though if we dont make a choice soon we'd definatly are gonna see more problem..

Right now we're watching Ghost Hunters Season 3 and its my favorite so far. So right now just enjoying the night, it looks like it rained today so the air smells good and fresh.. So thats nice.. So I just thought I'd post it's not a very long post due to being very tired and just emotinally drained out.. Otherwise doing ok.. Hope y'all are good..

Love & Light
Laura

Shift Back to Normal.

Hola All..

Lets see life is starting to shift to normal around here. I am so glad to..Finally the holidays are behind us and we can now move forward to a new year in 2008.. My DH has been so exhausted and not used to the day time hours and my son well into over drive and extreemly cranky.. Yesterday my lil wee one was so tired that we forced him to lay down at least an hour and he did but still woke up cranky and went to bed fighting due to not wanting to but to get up and play.. I finally had to shut the door and take his stuffed dog from him to make him go to bed. DH course sacked out on the couch all night sleeping and I knew he was tired and just needed some due rest.. Grandma stopped by to give me the exchange of Christmas gift that she bought was a coat but the coat was to small. So I got a real nice shirt and a slip on jacket like and it's purple! Yeah!

So today was nice and DH got up around 6am and I heard him get up but didnt realize the time and last night we gotten into it but thats ok he was tired and I had to let it go and let God work on both of us.. So we just relaxed and I played my PS 3 for an hour b4 retiring to bed.. My AF (period) is here so I'm pretty tired and just worn out course I had a cold last week and just got over that on Sunday.. So needless I'm still recouping.. We went grocery shopping and went a little over-board but at least we have food for the month and half to be sure that we're set on that.. We have to figure out how to fix my Chevy S10 truck and find a way to get it runnig at least and fix it slowly.. The only way we know how.. We would love to move to a different apartment but again its hard due to needing the time and space to move and get the bills current and the truck running is the top priority right now..

Lets see what else? DS is well, finally over his ear infections (Double) and he still has a cold and coughing some but other wise he's doing well.. We're due for rain this weekend and tonight and I am so glad to we need all the rain God can send to California.. We're desprate for rain to.. Lets see what else? Not much else.. DH took down our Christmas stuff and we're slowly getting the house "Normal" thats why I say shift to normal again.. Life is getting normal and once again we can start to enjoy the new year with out much of a fuss at least attempt to.. This sunday will be the first time in attending church since last April and we've been needing to go for so long but again its not fault or blame its life.. Things come up and been extreemly difficult but God dont give us more than we handle in life even though it feels like its more than we can bear..

Well, I do pray y'all had a wonderful New Years and that God graced all of you healthy and happy.. We're getting things there and in due time I cant complaine to much! Well let us begin 2008 ! God bless..

Love & Light
Laura

Happy New Year 2008

Well, Its almost 2008 and boy where did the time go? It'll be near 10 yrs since my parents death's and yet the world dont stop for that or for anyone.. So I wanted to wish y'all a Happy New Year and be blessed in 2008 .. Love you all..

Love & Light
Laura